How Deep Your Love Is And What Truly Matters

In a relationship and in life, the behavior of people will show you:

How high they honor.

How deep they love.

How they handle stress and adversities.

It is in our discernment to decide if we can live with that kind of behavior or not.  However, some people may not be ready to show you how high the honor or how deep they love yet.  They may need more time to trust, to feel safe around you.  They might not even be able to show you how they handle stress and adversities if everything in their life is going well and they have never gone through a difficult situation yet; this is true for young people and as life goes on they encounter situations where they need to be courageous, grow and become wiser.  I know life has put me in enough hot water to make me resilient and hopeful because I have seen the hand of God working through the unfolding of it. I have learned to trust guidance, be patient with the process and  unattached of the outcome, but it took me years to develop this kind of maturity, so somebody who met me in my teens or twenties and has not seen me since may still think of me as the person I used to be.  But no, life has enough circumstances that help us mature; there are many opportunities to become a better version of ourselves for sure.  The same goes for how high we honor and how deep we love.  I used to think both were the same but they are not.   Someone can love you deeply but may not be able to honor that level of love yet because they have never gone that deep before so they may need to change their ways, believes, habits and that takes willingness and patience from both parties.  I also learned that there is no wrong way to honor because honoring is very personal, some people are eloquent about it; some show it in deeds, some are more private; some are very public about it.  Again, our discernment is in knowing when and how we are being honored as oppose to misjudging someone for not honoring in the same way we do because we are all different therefore we express love and honor in very personal ways.  Love and honor are different; Love is shown in levels of trust, not in levels of honor and trust has to do with feeling safe in the relationship; however here is where most humans go wrong. I have learned that there is no wrong way for honoring but there is very wrong ways to love and trust.  There was a time when I put all my love, trust and safety on the hands of one person.  That is fine and dandy until the relationship comes to an end. It sure leaves you feeling like you could not love or trust again because your safety was taken away from you, so little by little you grow cold and can sabotage future relationships, even when you are treated well.  A few years ago I was given a revelation about it.  The Universe revealed to me how at the very young age of two I put my love, trust and safety in my great grandfather and when he died I felt so insecure that I almost died as well but it was not time for me to go yet, so wounded I continued and the Universe showed me how in order to continue I put my love trust and safety on a Kermit the frog puppet I had, but one day that puppet disappeared and then I found another person who I decided to put all my love, trust and safety in. Ironically, that person died as well and that was when I decided to close my heart from loving anyone.  At a very young age, unconsciously I decided that, so unconsciously I went through life not truly loving and every time life would find me someone who I thought I could love that person would have to leave town for some reason but because I was not as open as when I was younger, it did not affected me much. That was until I met my first husband. That relationship opened me enough to truly hurt when the relationship was over.  The wound was as deep as the first one when I was two years old.  The Universe revealed the similarities and the need to heal the root cause of it, AND I DID!  After the revelation and seeing all patterns of behavior since age of two, I got the breakthrough I needed and decided to put my love, trust and safety IN THE RIGHT PLACE…. ME.

Too much Doing, not enough Being – A lesson from the Inner Child

My Heart said:

“Follow me”

I said:

“Do you know where you are going?”

Heart:

“No, but I know the one who knows The Way”

Today, this lady I hardly know but is always very nice, came to me and told me:

“I’m sorry if I’m being presumptuous but you look like a dancer.  Do you dance? Because you walk like you are a dancer .“ 

I said:

“I am not a professional dancer but I belly dance.  I have taken classes before and it is my number one hobby.”

So she told me about all these dancing shows and workshops coming up by the American Dance Festival in the month of June, right when I will have a break from work.  I thought it would be a great idea to check them out so she was kind enough to bring me the booklet with all the information about it. 

As I was looking through the pages, I was grabbed by the colors on the pages, the pictures of the dancers and the abundance of shows and workshops coming up and I said to myself:

“You mean I can be a real dancer?!?!”

I was so happy, I started planning my vacation and budget around it thinking The Universe must have aligned this opportunity for me. 

I had to stop and go back to do my work, then a few minutes later my Inner Child came to me and said:

“Pinocchio wants to tell you something”

Advice from the Inner Child

• When you love me, you love yourself. Honor every piece that composes your being. Be in love with your heart, be amazed by your mind.  

• You are worthy of all your wholesome desires whether you have someone to share them with or not. Accept all that is yours when it comes.

• Your True Nature is Innocence, learn to forgive yourself for not knowing you have hurt others or yourself. Set yourself free to reflect your true state of Innocence.

•  Your heart doesn't want to be right, your heart wants to be happy. Share the wisdom you have acquired without imposing on anyone's beliefs. We all have the right to create our own magical world.   

• You did not come here to die for anyone and your job is not to save anyone either. Your job is actually a lot easier than that. Just get up every morning, brush your teeth and show that big smile to everyone you encounter. People take a mental picture of everything they see, show your kindness with a big smile they can remember you by. 

•  If someone is sad, remind them of their greatness. If someone is happy, celebrate along with them. If someone is angry, remember their greatness. If someone shows gratitude, accept with graciousness.

• If you are sad, express it without blaming anyone. If you are happy, express it with grace. If you are angry, express it without victimizing anyone. If you are grateful, express it lovingly. 

• Be always ready to play and win. Do not limit yourself by thinking that you have to wait for your turn or that you have to compete to play. New rules of the game: All play, all have fun, all win, because the Universe is our source and it is boundless and timeless.

 

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Mariela Siwarqinti, Healing Facilitator

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Impulse and the Heart

Impulses are ideas that come from the innocence of the heart and the innocence of the heart is an aspect of the soul.  Impulses are ideas that the soul has about the things it would like to experience next.  The soul says: “This! I would love to experience this”. The thing is, that impulses are great as ideas only, they are not so good when we act them out “impulsively” because the right conditions or resources or wisdom to carry them out may not be available yet. 

I wanna belly dance!

This is when our logic side should come in but not to stop us from doing it but to find out what is needed in order to experience that idea with the same good feeling as when the idea was born.  So, don't get worked up about not having the right conditions, resources or wisdom to make the dream of your heart a reality now.  But, have your eyes, heart and intuition open for when the right resources appear. 

In the meantime, put all the dreams you would love to experience but don't have the necessary things to make them happen, inside a drawer in your heart until you get what you need... and just trust.

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No Longer Without Love

The inner child is a fantastic communicator because just like a little child it will be creative and inventive to get your attention and because it is a little child, it will also have a touch of innocence mixed with some shines and playfulness. 

For the longest time I have been hearing these song in my head and asking Who do they belong too? What do they mean? Tell me more about what they represent.  Two weeks ago I realized that once I connect with people, I can step into their vibration and the song I hear not only represents how they are feeling but the songs also represent a part in me that has felt that way before and it triggers that feeling forward.  People’s energy, vibration, feelings, trigger something in my heart and the song is the translation of what my heart is picking up.  My heart is actually very smart.  When I was little, I used to listen to radio 24/7.  I have always loved music and while listening to the radio I noticed how lovers used to call the station to dedicate a song to a loved one.  I truly believed that was the most romantic thing anyone can do.  I used to love it when someone will go and serenate their loved one by the window too.  I experienced that once and it felt silly and lovely.  I love it! LOL.  I grew up somewhat disconnected from my heart because I suffered the loss of loved ones at a very early age so after doing a lot of healing these past years I understood I disconnected from my heart to protect myself from emotional pain.  This created a gap between me and my heart but without even knowing, my heart never gave up on me.  Because my heart was not able to get my attention, in order to reach me, my heart dedicates these songs to me to get my attention.  My heart, just like a little child knew how much I love song dedications so it sends these songs to me, not only to get my attention but also to tell me what it felt in my vibration or the vibration of other person.   My heart recognizes and feels the suffering of the person is connected to, then to get my attention it dedicates that song to me, not only to get my attention but also so that I can become present and propel the divine love machine so that together, me and my heart can send love and healing to the person who is feeling this and also to send love and healing to the part in my heart that feels the pain and suffering too.

Inner Child, Outer Adult

Healing Deep Wounds and Turning Yourself Inside Out

From Lecture at Oasis in Carr Mill

June 10, 2015

So, who here has hurtful memories from childhood? Please raise your hand

·      How many of you have worked on healing those wounds?

o   By forgiving or trying to forgive? Or By forgetting or trying to forget?

o   Which one, are you forgiving or are you forgetting?

·      When I say: “Lets Erase the wound”. How many of you resonate with this solution?

·      Now, How many of you have tried to “Own” your wound?  By Owning the wound, I mean acknowledging what happened and Accepting that whatever happened Caused a Wound that became a source of pain, sorrow, anger, fear…  A Wound that kept us Limited or Scared to Move Forward.

·      Who wants to OWN this, right? But you have to own it in order to heal it.  You may be able to erase a scar, but no an open wound.  The first step towards healing is to be honest with ourselves.  Take ownership of that would and work on healing it.

·      Have you heard the saying “Times Heals”?

·      Have you heard the doctrine that “Time is an Illusion”?

·      Which one do you think is true?

·      Both?

o   If time is an illusion then how can it heal?

o   Is pain also an illusion?... No, that cannot be true, right? Because it feels so real!

o   Time also feels so real… Don’t you feel yourself getting older?

I am a Mother and I am a Child

Originally written on: 6/6/2014, completed on 12/18/2014

“Tell me who doesn't love what can never come back

You can never forget how it used to feel

The illusion is deep

It’s as deep as the night

I can tell by your tears, you remember it all”  ~ The Cure, The Blood

In June 2013, I experienced a miscarriage.  At first it was hard to acknowledge it because it happened early in the pregnancy and it was not physically dramatic as what I have heard from others.  It was more emotional, mental and energetic.  It was also physical of course, in the sense that the fetus left my body, but it wasn’t physically painful for me.  It was painful in my emotions, my mind and my soul because I prepared and planned very thoroughly for it.